Friday 26 March 2010

亲情大过天

还记得小时候,我最喜欢跟外婆聊天了
她都会很有耐心地跟我们解说很多有关人生的道理、佛理和礼仪
她送给我的那本“因果经”,我可是一字不漏的看完
而且当中的意义可是让我在人生的成长过程中领悟不少

还记得小时候,我会坐在电视机前面,嘴里含着饭
吃了好几个小时,看了好几部香港连续剧,我那碗饭还是会完整不动
不晓得那是因为我无法分心地边看电视边吃饭
还是我根本就懒得嚼那食物
我曾经想过,如果我的腹部可以加个拉链直接把食物放进去,那该多好~
对地,我从小就是那么的懒而且诡计多端。。没办法,那是天生的吧

但我外婆从来不会对我的怪癖而破口大骂,反而会想尽办法来哄我吃饭
有一次她说到,“来,妳跟姐姐比赛看谁可以吃得比较快,我来喂妳们”
我就会莫名其妙地吃很多而且很快
再长大一点外婆就不再喂我了
那时她就会说,妳们五个(还有三位表姐)比赛看谁吃得快就会有奖赏
因为我每次都是吃最慢,所以我的奖赏往往都是最少
也还好那时在乡下里,两毛钱还是可以买到最便宜的冰淇淋~ 呀呼~~~

到了中学,外婆就会对我说,“妳也该是时候跟我学学如何煮东西吧”
“要不然以后当我不在的时候,就没人会煮妳爱吃的食物咯”
但调皮的我总会回答说
“外婆妳会长命百岁,永远煮我爱吃的食物到我嫁人的那天”
虽然我每次都口口声声说不想学,其实我都会帮忙她,听她说和看她煮
过不久后,外婆煮的东西也渐渐变得无味/太咸,原因是她已失去了味觉
再过不久,她也就病得很重。。而且也一天比一天瘦

到了三年前,我其实也没真正煮过一顿饭给她吃
最多也只是帮忙姐姐准备和学弄一些她爱吃的Jelly给她
当时我把最后一口Jelly喂到她嘴里后,我就说到
“外婆啊,我明天就会去美国打暑假工,要去三个月半”
“等我回来后我再弄一些妳爱的Jelly给妳吃”
“所以妳一定要活得健健康康等我回来噢~”
当时坐在病床上的外婆就对我微微笑和点点头表示好

过了两周后,外婆人已不在,我也不懂
直到三个月半后,他们才让我知道说,外婆已经离我们而去。。。
当时的我,简直是大崩溃。。但我知道,这一切我后悔也来不及。。
我也永远都没办法煮一顿好吃的来报答她。。。

以下的短片就是告诉我们
应该把握现在,对你的家人们说声“我爱你”
就算你是说不出口(我也真的说不出口。。。)
那你也应该把握现在地去表达你对他们的关心与爱
例如,有空时就陪他们去吃个早餐,也或者是大家坐下来喝杯茶聊聊天
其实我发现,爸妈都会感到寂寞
很想跟我们儿女分享他们的故事,也或者是诉苦
很忙碌的你,也应该停下脚步来看看你们的爸妈
他们的头发毕竟也慢慢地从黑发变白发了
你有察觉到吗?






那天,我爸突然跟我聊到Murphy's Law
“Anything that can go wrong will go wrong”
“Anything that can happen will happen”
当中的谈话就让我察觉到
父母永远都比我们自己还更担心我们自己的安危

上了中学后
我发现爸妈给我很多的自由,让我自由发挥
我所做的决定,他们也从来不过问太多
真没想到
。。。。原来他们还是会担心我的安危呢。。。。
(>.<)

Tuesday 23 February 2010

Itchy....ITCHY!!!!

Very itchy AAaahHHH!!! Damn stupid itchy rashes!!!

Yesterday, i suddenly have this skin allergy problem.. Having itchy rashes all over from my waist level till my neck, as well as my ears! As what quoted by Dr. Martin, it has to be cured IMMEDIATELY before it goes up to my face and causing me short of breath.. BUT as what we've expected from the general hospital, they just let me WAIT without giving me any immediate and proper injections! Damn it!!

THANKS to Dr. Martin, i finally got my injections much faster than it was supposed to. Just a few minutes after the injections, ALL the rashes are GONE! If only you guys could work more efficiently, i won't have suffered so long by waiting 3 hours you know!

When i thought everything would be fine after that...but unfortunately...it is NOT... This morning when i woke up, the stupid itchy rashes are back AGAIN! This time, the rashes are projecting downwards from my waist level...not that bad still... After i had the medicine, it stops spreading, finally.. Phew~

Since i didn't eat anything (except a glass of Milo) for breakfast, i started to feel hungry before my lunch is packed. Therefore, i just grabbed anything that's reachable from me in the room...which is the Munchy's chocolate hazelnut wafer cubes~ Few minutes after eating that, i can feel that my body is itchy-ing again.......not again.....

Now, both my arms and hands are full of rashes...a bit on my back and my shoulder...over my waist and my buttock....and a bit on the my thighs and my legs... Come on, STOP spreading PLEASE!!! AAaaarrRRGGGGggggghhHH!!!!!

Thinking back...
...yesterday after eating a piece of biscuit (containing peanuts), my body suddenly feel itchy...
...after that, we went to Kajang and had satay (with the peanuts-like gravy) for dinner, then the rashes are getting worse...
...then today after eating the hazelnut biscuits, i realised, the rashes are getting worse AGAIN!!!

Don't tell me that i'm seriously allergy to nuts man!! I LOVE nuts!! How can i SUDDENLY allergic to nuts!?!? This is so unfair!! No way!! AAaarrGGgggHHHH!!! ITCHY like HELL!!! (>.<)

Thursday 18 February 2010

发泄篇

难道真的是我们前世欠了你吗?

向来对我们漠不关心我就算了

每当遇到困难就对我们狮子开大口我也算了

每次要我们帮忙时 脾气也不可以好一点

难道你就连那一点点的礼貌也不懂吗?


小时候外婆就很常对我们说

如果你要别人尊敬你 那你就要先懂得如何尊敬别人

这点礼仪我们每个人都懂 就只有你不懂

脾气有限的我 也就更不可能每次都吞下那口气来迁就你

每次都不觉得那是你自己的错 不懂得体谅 又不肯聆听

这就是为什么你那么多年来都不会进步的原因之一

这也是为什么我们那么多年来都不能好好地沟通


如果我可以有三个愿望的话 我的其中一个愿望就是

希望你可以停下脚步来看看身边真正关心你的家人

然后再反省一下你多年来的态度行为

就是因为你是亲人

要忍的 我还是会忍

要讲的 我还是会讲

要帮的 我还是会帮

但我还是很期待 你会有‘醒’过来的那天

好让大家都可以和睦相处

Monday 1 February 2010

东方vs西方


最近 朋友突然唤醒了我的灵感
我那之前都一直很想写有关于‘牵手’这篇文章的灵感~
我一直都有着这个概念觉得说 东方人都大部分比较保守 为啥呢?
从小 我就很少看到爸妈一起手牵手地逛街 好像是从来都没看过吧
记忆中 他们也很少会牵起我的小手
也不晓得为啥 我从小时候就对‘牵手’这东西很陌生
还记得 以前姐姐都超爱在百货公司突然牵起我的手
但我都会很迅速 很狠心地甩开她的手 哈哈!
当然 我不是故意的 只是觉得有点很不自在而已嘛~ ;p

但是去年在英国的时候 偶然中认识了这位来自广东的朋友
跟她认识也不算太久 但有一天晚上送她回家时 她却突然牵起我的手
顿时有被惊吓到 但我却没有反抗 原因也只有一个
。。。是因为 天气实在是太冷了啦。。。
当下我才领悟到 原来牵手的其中一个好处就是可以互相取暖啊~
过后我就心想 外国的情侣大部分都很常会亲密的牵手啊拥抱啊什么的
那是因为天气冷的关系 然后就慢慢成为了他们的习惯 
之后再慢慢演变成西方人的Culture吗?

以上的照片是我在苏格兰偷拍到的一对老夫妻
那么恩爱一起手牵手的老夫妻 在国外是很常见的
但在大马是少之又少吧 原因是因为天气太热 很容易流汗的关系吗?
我记得 在台湾的太鲁阁也曾看过一对一头白发的老夫妻恩爱地手牵手
那画面真的很感人 可惜我来不及掏出我的相机 他们就不见了~
那也是我人生第一次觉得可以爱一个人到白头偕老是件不容易的事
如果可以的话 那就真的是很幸福了~

~爱情这东西 还是一切随缘吧~
总有一天 我一定会找到一个爱我比我更爱他的另一半
与我一起白头偕老吧~ (^o^)

Friday 1 January 2010

带我飞 by 林志玲

Watched The Treasure Hunter yesterday.
The story line...got no main points at all... (=.=)
If you ask me how good does Jay Chou and Lin Zhi Ling acted...
I'd dare say, i can fight better than them also. haha!
The ending part was so draggy some more...
For a few times i thought the movie is going to end but it was not!
***kena tipu...tak syiok!***
Okla, at least the ending song is great~ ^^

Monday 14 December 2009

A Terrible Me & A Wonderful You

I was lying on my bed...staring on the ceiling...
...and thinking deeply of what you were trying to consult me last night...
I know it damn well too, you're always there when i need you...
...and even sacrificing your precious time and sleeping hours...
...to talk to a wood like me...

Dunno since when, i become so ignorant and hurting you all the time...
...and worst of all, i don't even noticing that...
It is really not fair...
...not fair at all for you to care for such terrible person like me...

I was thinking...am i really born to have a heart of stone?
I never notice i am actually such a terrible person...until you told me so...
I really dunno how to care nor to love the people around me...
I really dunno why...

I know i should be very grateful
...because even if i am such a terrible person...
...people like you, my beloved families, my lovely bro and even my sir...
...are always there to concern about me...

I really should...and i really will
...learn to care and love the people around me more...
...maybe not by words...but definitely by actions...

I know myself very well
If i know of someone that really cares and loves me with their true heart
I will do the same too
But my actions could be indirectly and less obvious...
...but that's just me...

Lastly, to my beloved bro
Even if i can't find a true love in my entire life...
...like what you said, "there's no true love in this realistic world"...
I won't really care less
What most important to me is
~true love from my families and friends~

Thursday 10 December 2009

日夜想你 by 鍾嘉欣

已经好久好久
没接触广东歌或广东戏了
也不晓得为啥
最近电台有播放这首鍾嘉欣的日夜想你
还真的蛮好听勒~
好听好听~